I honestly believe I married the most amazing man in the world, and that somehow, by God's good grace, he fell in love with me. I frequently think to myself how fortunate I am, but I never say it enough, not to him or anyone else. And so I want to take an opportunity to proclaim it!
Obviously the last 12 days have been exceptionally chaotic. When I called Justin to come meet me at the hospital, he dropped everything and came right away. He took me to basically say goodbye to Jack for a little while, took me home to pack, got me checked into the hospital, and stayed a few nights with me so I could get settled in. But even during that time, he was back and forth to my parent's house to be a good father to our son. He would go to feed him dinner, bathe him and put him to bed, only to then drive back to the hospital so I didn't have to be alone for too long. I know how difficult it is on Justin to leave me here, feeling guilty that I am left alone, while he goes to spend time with Jack. Then he feels guilty all over again when he leaves Jack to spend time with me. Not to mention the difficulties involved with bringing Jack to the hospital so we can see each other. For a child who doesn't love car rides, it's a lot just to get him back and forth when the hospital is a good 30 minutes away (or over an hour in bad traffic, which happened). Justin has managed to get Jack to swim lessons, to maintain the house and finances, to bring our organic delivery boxes in so that Jack can have fresh produce, he's even brought be blended juice beverages so that I can get some good raw fruits and vegetables in my diet (which is seriously lacking on the hospital menu). Justin has worked hard to not fall too far behind at work (at the expense of sleep), to meet the needs of his family, and he's done it all without complaint. Absolutely amazing if you ask me.
Justin is the most selfless person I know. He has taken such good care of Jack, me and baby on the way. I am in awe of how he manages to balance it all, how he juggles everything. Though I know it is far from effortless, his quite resolve helps me in so many ways. I know this is so hard on him, that Jack can be trying at times, and that trying to fill the roles of mom and dad is taking a toll. But Justin's lack of complaints, willingness to do what is necessary (plus more), and ability to do it all day in and day out inspires me. I love you, honey! Thank you for all of your sacrifices. Our family is so incredibly lucky to have you.
